I didn't really talk to Asher today. He kinda just left us after class. Wilson came with us to De Anza! YAY! I gace him a BIG FAT hug. Lol. We all went to Chipotles; Darren, Wilson, Donald, Alex, Vince, David, and David's friend. I just got chips, ate it, and left for school.
     I gave Jude my Goldfish. He was starving and was picking off all of the mussel from the morning culinary class and eating it. Class was fun. We made Banana Bread and Guelgoph. The banana bread tastes hella good! I love it! Lol. After class, Lynn and I stayed back for a bit to work on our gingerbread house. We didn't get much done. We just sheeted some dough and baked some. We baked it for too long so when we tried to cut it, it was already hard, but we got some pieces cut out of it. No biggie. I burned myself terribly today. I thought it was smart to melt white chocolate and try to carry the hot bowl with my bare hands back to my table. Let's just say the bowl fell to the ground after 2 seconds (but it didn't spill). Now my fingers are burnt.
     I was supposed to take karate today with Kim but I got home about 15 minutes before it began and I'm hella tired. Plus, I gotta do my laundry so badly, find my uniform, do hw and test corrections, rewrite more PCI notes and try not to think of Asher. Alright, I'm going to go pursue my goals.
     -Banhzaii

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     Oh man, I love talking to Carlos. Even though I've only met him once, I feel like I can have the most randomest conversations with him ever. So Jen and Allyson came over today. We just talked and watched 500 Days of Summer. Then we made some cookies and went out to buy stuff for pizza. We came home and started making pizza. Omg. Hella big! We undercooked it though so now my tummy kinda feels funny. I won't get sick. Don't worry. We also watched The Number 23 at the same time. Hella trippy movie. Even though I've seen it already, it was nice to watch it again. After the movie, we just talked some more, cleaned up and then they both went home. Fun night with the ladies. I'm hella tired right now. All I want to do is to clean my room and shower. I really wish I had a guy to look forward to talking to. If only...
     -Banhzaii

You can try to hide your feelings, but they won’t disappear just like that, and if they don’t go away, then there must be a reason why they’re t h e r e.
 
 
     So yesterday after De Anza, I went to Patty's house and went to the Mall with Daniel and Patty. We went to the American Apparel store. OMG! They have a friken American Apparel store!! We were all hecka excited. That store was really quiet though, not gonna lie. So we ended up buy nothing. Then I dropped them back at home.
     At PCI, we made hella cookies and pumpkin bread. Omg, someone drained 2 sinks at once so it started overflowing! Ughh. It was flooding in the hallway too. I think it was Thao, but her and Nancy TRIED to clean it, but ended up leaving all the towels there. Then they just went home. Serena changed, but when she got out, she helped Lynn and I and Chef clean it up. GG. Dirty dirty work.
     After PCI, I had so much time to kill so I stopped by Kira's. Amanda and Geoff were there. We played rockband. Lol... ANYWAYS. I was supposed to chill with Vlad that night because I was gonna get my mom a BDAY cake. But Vlad had to eat dinner with his family. Then he calls me up and tells me that he already made plans and all this other confusing stuff. So anyways, Kira drives us all the way to Milpitas to eat In and Out. Then we go to Walmart to look for flowers for my mom but they didn't sell any. On the way home, stuff happened. Drama.
     So we get back to Kira's place, and I go to Amanda's place. Amanda went home to get her things then we go back to my house and give my mom the cake. Amanda slept over and we just talked, chilled, drew sketches, etc. Man, talking to Blake and Vlad are hella funny. Vlad was drunk so I was messing wih his head, and Blake is just Blake. Haha. We eventually fell asleep at 1 in the morning.
     So this morning, we were both pretty late. Good thing there wasn't any traffic! So this morning, Lynn and I thought of our gingerbread house. It's gonna be a Pagoda. Hella awesome! So we took carboard and started cutting and stuff. and also making the shape of everything. It's funny because she was talking about her son. Lol. So, we didnt really get much done, but we just decided to go back to her place and finish. I love talking to the guys. Blake, Ameet and Greg were there. I'm gonna be sad when they graduate..
     After PCI, I drive Amanda home and I head over to Lynn's house. She showed me a pic of her son. Lol. He's alright looking. Apparently he plays the drums, got a label deal, is 6'1", and he cooks. Lol. Funny. So yea, we get everything done. We built our gingerbread pagoda out of cardboard! Whoo! Lol. I hope that we actually pull this off. I dont care if I win or not, this is just a pretty fun experience.
     So now, I'm at home, waiting for Jen and Allyson to come over so we could hang out. I'm so exhausted! But I can't wait. Tomorrow, I think I'm going over to Blake's with Vlad to go chill and stuff. If Vlad doesn't come with me, I'd just be like "WTH VLAD, WTF" Lol. Jkjk.
     -Banhzaii
 
 
     Alan spent the WHOLE day with me. Hecka crazy! He went to De Anza with me, sat in my French and Trig class and we chilled at the park.
     After De Anza, I drove us to PCI but we got there hella early so we started to stall. Lol. But yea, I got him all fitted, got changed and headed off to class. I think Alan had fun, we made Bacon and Chive scones and cranberry walnut muffins. Since I didn't like bacon, on a third of the dough, I put in parmesean cheese instead. I personally think it tastes hecka good! I haven't tried my muffins yet, but I tried chef's. I think it tastes okay. The cranberries are very sour though...
     After PCI, we dropped off some goodies at karate and went to the football game. It was pretty fun. The band wasn't THAT bad. Jen and Allyson are such cuties! LOL. Kim met up with me and we said hi to a bunch of people. After halftime, Kim and I went back to her house and talked. So relaxing.
     Now I'm watching the Office. Hecka funny. But I'm super tired so GOOD NIGHT!
     -Banhzaii
 
 
     The more I think about it, the more I wish it was real. I want everything to go as planned; I talk to him online, I find him at school, and we live happily ever after. But really? How often does "happy ever after" come? I wish I could talk to him. I wish he could just finally go on Myspace and add me. Lol. I wish I could be his knight in shining armor and save him like last time, but this time I'll introduce myself. This is weird. Me liking a guy I hardly know. Could it be his masterful skill of being a chef that draws me to him? All I could do right now is just stand afar and admire him, hoping that my "one day" will come.
     For the past 2 night, I've been having dreams of him. Well, more of me looking for him. The first one was when I was singing "Ordinary People" by Asher Book. Instead of him coming, Asher comes out of nowhere and sings with me. Of course I'm happy, but I'm not satisfied. Instead I am looking around as I sing, hoping that he is there. But he's not. The second one was when I'm in a certain type of building. I don't want to explain because you guys will just be confused. I see that Kevin guy from orientation and he gives me a kiss. It's weird I know. But at that second, we both love each other. But, when we depart I question myself. I ask myself why I am doing this. I like another person and that person isn't Kevin. Instead, I look out windows hoping to see him in his car, but he isn't.
    What is that supposed to mean? Looking for someone who isn't there? All I could say is 2 more days! My only fear of everything is:
1) He is actually gay, which would suck in my part but could be useful in the long run.
2) He falls for that Caitlyn girl. I would really be jealous though.
     I sound like a creepy stalker. I admire a guy who probably doesn't know I exist. Ahh well... That's life. 2 more days!
     On the bright side, I cleaned my sister's filthy room. It's really clean now. I also have a master plan on how I want my room to look like if I remodeled it. I kinda cleaned my room today, but then I stopped, like how I always do. Instead, I watched 3 episodes of Grey's Anatomy. I also picked up Jen from the mall and we went to Banana Republic to see Axell. I betcha one of the workers thinks we're weird. We were running around, peering behind corners and hiding behind manniquins. Lol. After that, we go to the Angel Pix place and take more pictures! Then I drive Jen home. Now I'm at home. Starving. I think Axell's mom wanted me to come over to have some food, but I'm not gonna go if Axell's not at home! That's weird! I guess his mom doesn't hate me anymore. Yay!
     -Banhzaii
 
 
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     That was one of the funnest. I picked up Allyson and Axell around 1:30 PM and we went to Nob Hill to buy more food for the beach. We bought some ingredients for the wraps, some drinks, and chips. We then headed out to Jen's house. All I'll say is that we FAIL at kidnapping. Lol. We somehow made it into Jen's house. Sorry Jen, only certified ninjas are allowed to know how we got in. Anyways, Jen was sleeping when we came and we swept her away.
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     I drove all the way to Sunset Beach for her birthday. It was really nice. Super foggy and empty. It was just like the beach was only ours for the day. The sand is really nice and the water was very cold. We ate some wraps and then us ladies went into the water. Jen and I got fully soaked while Allyson looked like she peed her pants. Lol. Axell didn't want to go in because he didn't want to get sick. You party pooper. We were joking around with jellyfish and Axell. If we got stung by a jellyfish we would tell Axell to pee on us. LOL. He's the only one that can actually aim... ANYWAYS. Us ladies went out for a walk and everything. It was really nice and peaceful. There were a camp of seagulls and Jen ran through them. I was scared that they were gonna poo on us! We then joined back with Axell. We just chilled and talked, it was nice and enjoyable.
     Then, around 6, we packed up everything and headed back to the car because we wanted to warm ourselves up and eat some ice cream. When we got back to the car, my car remote ran out of bateries so I couldn't open the car. FAIL! The alarm kept going off because I opened it manually. Ughh. I couldn't start the car either. I had to call my dad and he told me to press this button where the foot pedal was and turn the car on. Somehow, it worked. But I couldn't turn my car off. Bleh. So yea, we just drove back home and there was hecka traffic! Axell had to go home so we made a quick stop at Savemart. Jen went in and bought some ice cream while we stayed in the car and left it running. Then I took Axell home. I stopped by home first so I could get a new remote for my car and shorts for Allyson. Then I took Allyson home because it was 8:30 PM.
     At Jen's house, her family "surprised" her with a nice chocolate mousse cake. It was pretty good. Then we had some pizza and Jen opened my gift. I got her a giraffe and I made her a scrapbook a.k.a my "project". Lol. I got to cake her. WOOT! Ahh... What a fun day. Lol.
     When I got home, I immediately took a shower and collected all of the sand in a bottle. Then I went downstairs to watch tv, but then I forgot to do TRIG homework! So I stayed up till 12:30 doing it. I kept texting Marvin for help. Dude, our teacher doesn't teach us shit...
     Now I'm here alone in the library. There's a couple making out right next to me... ANYWAYS. I saw Adam again today! Lol. I should say Hi to him next time...
   -Banhzaii
 
 
     After dinner, I went and picked up Axell. Then we went to Jen's house. I showed Axell my project right before we got in. Jen was sitting on her chair in front of her table, right next to the window. Axell and I got a clear view of her so we decided to scare her. It was really funny. We ran to the door and I first jumped out and yelled "BOO!" but Axell was like "AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" and started hitting the window. It was hilarious! I think Jen fell off of her chair and screamed! When Jeremy opened the door he was like, "You guys scared the whole family!" LOL. Ahh what a good night. We just chilled in Jen's room and watched Ghost Rider which was on TV. I personally didn't think that movie was good. Afterwards, Jen and I wanted to go for a walk, but Axell and Jen ate some food before we left. We walked for a little until Axell said that he had to go home. He's just chicken... ANYWAYS. We headed back, Jen's mom got me a camera stand, a camera case, and a T-Shirt. LOL. She put it in a camera box so I thought she gave me a camera. I was like, "Oh... thaaaanks..." but she was like, "You have to open it" so I did and I was like, "OH THANKS!" LOL. I already had a camera so I thought that if she got me a camera, it'd be quite useless. But anyways, that was funny.
     Axell and I headed out and I took him back to his uncle's place. He introduced me to his family and we went our seperate ways. I'm glad I got to hang out with Axell and Jen today. It was nice. I certainly filled my craving of hanging out with Axell. Oh YESH! Lol. It was fun though.
     -Banhzaii
 
 
     I had difficult sleeping last night. I think I officially fell asleep around 2 or 3 AM. I woke up at 8 AM this morning to take a nice shower to wake me up. I was done before 8:30 and I had nothing to do. I don't eat breakfast anymore so I just drank a cup of soy milk. I got so bored so I started youtubing things while I waited for my hair to dry. I youtubed Milo Ventimiglia. [Me-low Ven-tuh-me-lee-uh] The "g" is silent in this case. He's my new favorite actor, alongside Patrick Dempsey. Around 9:10 AM, I was already out the door, in my car and heading out towards PCI.
    I got there almost half an hour early so I just relaxed in my car. I started singing along with the music on my ipod. LOL. By the time it was 9:45 AM, I decided to head out. When I got there, I got my folder and everything [they spelled my last name wrong!] Then, they led us to the conference room area where we sat in. I met a lot of new people. One was Janelle who knows Shian and goes to Piedmont Hills High. I met a few others, but they sat in the wrong table so they had to move. Another girl was Caitlyn [sp?]. She and i competeted against each other and she was the other one who got first place. Janelle got 3rd.
     So, we just went through everything for PCI. After 2 hours, it was time to pick up books and uniforms. Janelle and I went a little late because we had to fill out paper, by the time we got our books, a lot were already out, plus the tool kits. So we just got 2 books. We're actually supposed to get about 5 big books and a heavy tool kit. Good thing I didn't get it though because I'd have too much to carry. After we got books, we went to the "fishbowl" and got our uniforms. Janelle couldn't find hers but she found mines. Lol. I feel bad, I hecka just left her. I needed to go talk to somebody about De Anza and stuff so I had to leave her. SORRY.
     I went back down to the book room. They told us that the first 6 days of class, we had to be there at 7 AM but I wouldn't be able to make it because I had classes at 8:30 AM. So I talk to the chef about it and they just told me to call back and he'll hook me up with online classes for now. On the 6th day, that is when we're supposed to take our exam, so he told me to come in after De Anza and they'll issue me a test.
     Anyways, by the time I left, it was 12. I followed Allan Dale's map to Gunderson and I somehow actually made it there! LOL. When I got there, I only saw Brandon. I didn't change into my uniform so I was trying to aviod KJN Ernie and Tony. KJN Tony spotted me, but I got hecka lucky. He didn't yell at me! He was just talking to me about PCI and stuff. Hehe. Brandon was like, "Don't worry, you wont get in trouble because he likes you" But I was like, "STILL I'M GONNA GET INTO TROUBLE!" but I didn't! Oh Yesh! Lol. I stayed at the tournament for a hecka long time! Everyone left too! Well except Brandon, Bianca, Diane, Daniel, and Patty. Brandon was still performing. I didn't know how to get home so I just waited till the end. I said Hi to KJN Ernie and after half an hour after everything was done, Patty led me back on the freeway. We stopped by Katelyn's home to pick her up.
     OMG, her whole family isn't part of West Coast anymore! It's so sad! Anyways, we all headed out to Quickly's, but when we got there, I told them about Verde and it's happy hour. We decided to go to Verde instead so I led them to Verde. Kim met up with us too! After Verde, we all went to Hilltop to explore. The bought HECKA stuff! Gosh, rich people! Lol. I bought a special gift for a special somebody. Hehe... Anyways, we all went our seperate ways after. Patty, Daniel, Diane and Bianca left while I drove Katelyn to her cousin's house in Milpitas. He lives hecka close to me! Katelyn said that since her family isn't in West Coast anymore, they might buy a house in Milpitas. She's gonna be living hecka close to me! Lol. She also told me that Justin Baltazar lives really close to me too. Yum.
     Anyways, after I dropped her off, I went to Staples and bought a bunch of school supplies. Yay! Lol. Then I headed back home and now I'm here.
     For some odd reason today, I'm really craving to hang out with Axell. After dinner, Axell and I are gonna surprise Jen at her house. YOU BETTER ACT SURPRISED JEN! Lol.
     I'm excited for PCI to start! We already got homework! Lol.
     -Banhzaii
 
 
     Today was quite an adventure I must say. I woke up, cleaned the house, did the laundry and attempted to reorganized my room. At 12:30 PM, Jessica Lim showed up at the footsteps of my front door ready to head out for a fun filling day with the rest of the ladies. I hadn't quite gotten ready, nor had I asked my mom if I had permission to leave, so I cleaned up what I could and made the hallways spotless. I got ready and as I was about to leave, I asked my mom if I had permission to go.
     Afterwards, Jessica and I drove all the way to Pasta Pomodoro where we met up with June and Clare. We waited about 5 minutes until we were seated. The lunch was delicious but filling. We ordered salad, chicken pasta alfredo and ravioli. We had a nice family style lunch that cost us about $7 each. Not bad. On the way out, I noticed that Mr. and Mrs. Sutherland sat a table away from us, I didn't hesitate to acknowledge them and wave. That was quite a suprise I must admit. We had time to kill so we walked over to Wal-Mart.
     Upon our arrival, we encountered Marc! I can't believe he's leaving to Cal Poly too! But to Pamona instead of San Luis Obispo. We all headed over to the optometry area so I could buy new contacts, but the doctor said that my perscription expired so I had to get a new written perscription from my doctor. We had more time to kill so we walked our way towards Michaels. No, I did not see a familiar face there, BUT I bought a basket for my magazines! I feel so accomplished, it was 50% off.
     After, we walked back to our cars and headed to Milpitas High School. Clare and I parked on Arizona. As I got out of my car, a familiar voice called my name. I looked past the gates and there was Frank. Random! Clare, June, Jessica and I walked towards school, but since my optometrist was near Nobhill, I departed from them and headed over there.
     As I got there, I asked for a new written perscription in order for me to buy new contacts. I had to pay and extra $30 for an exam and they were able to fit me in right at that time so I immediately took the spot. It was quick and easy and now I have my written perscription. My doctor also told me that I had slight astigmatism but it's not that noticable. What the heck is that? Anyways, I headed back to school and I twittered, "I'm at MHS, if you find me you get bonus points" or something like that. Too bad no one found me. Jen was looking for me, sorta. Lol.
      After regrouping with the ladies and Kristine, we walked to the cars and headed over to Orange Tree. Jessica Lim and June went to Quickly's for a drink while Clare, Kristine and I went to Orange Tree. I didn't buy any yogurt but I got a sample of pinapple dole whip. Yum! After that, I immediatley headed over to Kim's house.
     As I got there, Anthony greeted me with a nice big "Hello!" Lol. I waited as Kim got ready and we headed out. We had to go back to get directions to Spinkles. As we went back on the road, everything went swell and smooth, until I took the wrong exit. It was the Embarcadero/Oregon exit and I went into Embarcadero instead of Oregon. We had to do a Uie and went back on the freeway. Thankgoodness for all of those signs. It lead us all the way back to Oregon, nice and smoothly. Kim and I got really excited. We survived!
     Standford Shopping Center is a nice, big, open, shopping center. I was quite amazed. We walked and found our way to Spinkles. As I was waiting in line, I noticed a man behind me that strangely looked like that creeper Jason who kept hitting on Linsey junior year. She was still with Peter at the time and Jason was annoyingly perssistant. Anyways, I don't think that was him though. Scary... I bought 2 red velvets, one for me and one for Allan Dale.  Kim bought 3 red velvets and one pumpkin spice. We went outside and enjoyed our cupcake. Red Velvet for me and Pumpkin Spice for her. Or pumpkin chai or something. I don't remember. Anyways, that one tasted exactly like pumpkin pie! Yum. We both were extremely thirsty so we headed over to Starbucks and bought a drink. As we were finding our way back to the parking lot, we got lost so we had to use the directory. Once again, a familiar voice called my name. It was actually Brian Pita. Random, but not really. I just said, "Hey.. Brian." and left. Bad memories with him...
     We had less than half an hour left before blackbelt tryouts, no map to take us home and two brains. We just backtracked everyone and somehow made it to the studio JUST IN TIME. The way back was pretty hilarious. It was rush hour and everytime I made it to the carpool lane Kim would scream and cheer and throw her hands in the air. LOL. We're a funny pair.
     At the studio, Kim and I changed super quickly and went straight to the tables. Hehe, I stole Mariah's spot. Allan Dale made her move down for me. YEA THAT'S RIGHT! I had my phone in my gee top and it kept vibrating because of all the twitters. Mariah was like, "Gosh Jessica.." Lol. Anyways. The tryouts were alright. It was only an hour long. In the end, only 5 out of the 11 candidates would have stayed, the rest would have been cut. But Allan Dale was being nice so he let them have one more chance to redeem themselves. He's so nice to them...
     After tryouts, we all just chilled, got the stereo working and blasted music. Kim and I started dancing around. Lol! So much fun! Anyways, yea. I just drove Kim home and went home myself. My dad's friends from LA arrived. I hecka don't remember them. Oh well, they're taking over my brothers' room. I was practicing drums earlier. I'm terrible at it, so I'm trying to get better. I got tired of playing, plus I got kicked out of my brothers' room by my mom so now I'm here blogging. Sorry I couldn't go to your party Tina! I doubt you're reading this anyways. I really wanted to go eat ramen with you guys! Darn... Anyways, I had quite an adventure today. It was fun. Tomorrow I have PCI Orientation at 10 in the morning! Then I might head out to Gunderson High School for the tournament. Hopefully I won't get lost. It's only going to be me driving...
    -Banhzaii