The stupid phone kept ringing at 8 AM in my sister's room as I was thinking to myself Why won't she pick up the phone? After the phone finally stopped ringing, I tried many times to fall back asleep, but I couldn't, especially after that dream.

          Kenny, Charles, Michelle and I went to this one party and Michelle
          was sitting with her friends. Then I went up to Charles and asked
          how him and Michelle were but he told me that they broke up.
          Then I asked him why and he said that it was complicated. He
          also told me that he was going to ask that DUMBASS out and I
          Totally flipped on him. I was like "WHAT?!" and I shoved him
          against the wall and s l a p p e d him across the face. Then I
          kept yelling at him on how I didn't like her. Then Kenny and I    
          interrogated him and stuff. WIERD DREAM. If that ever happened,
          I swear that I will beat up Charles and slap some sense into him.

     Anyways, I climbed out of bed and realized my sister wasn't in her room. Haha, silly me. I felt kinda gross so I decided to take a nice
w a  r  m
shower. I'm so glad that it was a nice day today, definitely not a hot day. After showering, I just watched some Grey's, and cleaned up a little bit till it was 10:20 AM. Then I got ready to head out and pick up Allyson and Axell for out plan but friken Axell took way to friken long so by the time we got to school to pick up Jen, everybody had already left. Stupid Axell. LOL. Anyways, we then headed out to Jen's house where we watched Thirteen Ghosts and Edward Scissorhands.

We also did some karaoke. NO I DON'T SING WELL. Anyways, we chilled till 5 PM and frolicked around the neighborhood. Once we arrived back home, Allyson's dad was already there ready to pick her and Axell up. So after they left (around 6) I also decided to leave and head out to W.C Cambrian.
     LOL. Omg, Daniel was there and he was totally surprised. He's sucha Powerhouse Douche bag. He didn't even say HI to me. Asswipe. Whatever. He's so immature, I swear. Danyelle told me that he uses girls like they're tissues now. If I remember to, I'll get back to that story later
But yea, he totally like didn't even acknowledge my presence, but he had the WTF face on when my back was turned to him. SCORE. lol. That's right BITCH. Haha, yea..
     After Cambrian, I drove the Nguyen's home and then took Daniel to the yogurt place near by. It's alright, they didn't have Taro or Dole Whip. I just got Cookies and Cream, Original Tart, and Strawberries and Bananas with Strawberries and Mochi as a topping. Yum. I also ordered a Turkey Avocado Croissant sammy. That was tasty, yet very large like. I couldn't finish it so then I wanted to use a yogurt cup to take it home so I told Daniel to look at the guy's reaction. This was what happened:

     Me: Hello, can I have a yogurt cup? You don't have to put a sticker
           on it.
     Cashier: *wtf face* Uhh... *puts hand on the stack of yogurt cups*
     M: It's for my sandwich
     C: Oh.. We can get you a to go box if you want
     M: No.. It's alright I'll take the cup
     C: Uhh.. I don't I'm allowed to do that I'll just get you a box *runs
          away before I could say anything*

Haha, funny. After that place, we decided to stalk the rest of his siblings down at Marshall's but we're bad stalkers and they found us quite easily. Darn them. I just browsed a bit but the rest of them bought stuff. We headed back to Patty's place, chilled and then she made a ring tone for me but it didn't really work. It's ok, I'll just keep trying. But yea. After that my mom called and then I decided it was time to head home. So that's why I'm here right now. I'm just waiting for Kenny's call. Good night
     -Banhzaii
 

Fatigued

06/28/2009

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     Today was a really hot day. I did almost nothing today. I ate TK Noodles with my family then stayed home and watched Grey's Anatomy season 3. I'm glad my brother's room has AC. It's freezing cold in there. Today I felt really tired. I didn't do much except watch T.V and play games. It's the worst I've been this whole summer. Doing nothing and getting my life sucked out from under me. Technology sucks. I planned to clean my room but I was too warped into Grey's. I think I'm going to go shower, then fall asleep, there's nothing more for me to do.
     I don't want things to be awkward between us.
     -Banhzaii

Vegas Skies
by The Cab

It's twelve o'clock, and I need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum; the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless until I wake tomorrow
If tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel, the way that I’ll remember it
I’ll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It’s a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don’t I make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what once was innocent
They won’t let me in, but I’m stronger than that
‘Cause you stole my eyes and I’ve never looked back
Girl, last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel, the way that I’ll remember this
When we’re this young; we have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat and a hand to choose

It’s a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don’t I make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

It’s a long way down
Just fall into place and you’ll fall into me
We’ll make it out; you’ll see

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and

Say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right
 
 

     It makes me sad knowing how much I affect people. Whether they hate me or like me.  I don't want anyone to hate me, but then again I don't really care if they do. But what upsets me the most is that I am unintentionally hurting people. I don't mean to do it, I don't mean to be myself and make people fall in love with me. It just something that happens. I can't not be myself and make them not like me because I would just be fake not only to my friends, but also to myself.
     I just wish that people would see me for who I am. I wish they would just talk to me as if I was their friend, because I am their friend. I don't want people seeing me as "the girl they like" or have a crush on. Just simply a friend.
     Like I said, I'm not looking for a relationship, I'm not interested in anyone. I have learned from past experiences that I should not wear my heart on my sleeve. I don't want to get hurt and I want to know that next time I like someone, it's not because of their pretty face but because of their personality. I don't want to like someone just because I miss that feeling of having someone there for me; that's called rebounding and that's what friend's are always there for. Friends. I only wish that people would talk to me like normal person. I like the special treatment and all, but at the moment, it's not going to do anything to me but hinder me. That person might be standing right in front of my eyes, but things like this just take time. I have made too many mistakes, none that I regret because "we make mistakes in order to learn from them".
     It also makes me sad knowing that people are afraid of me. I don't care if I'm a second degree black belt and can kick your butt. What are they scared of? That I'm going to kill them? Yes I know I'll say "I'm gonna kill you" but do you really think I'm going to do that? Its a figure of speech, I'm 18. Legal. I'm not going to throw my life away because of something I did. I'm still always going to be the same person. Jessica Ngo Banh. If you know me, then you know that I'm a kind person, not scary unless I dislike you. I don't intentionally want to hate on people. Things just happen that way and I can't stop it, it's how I feel towards another human being. Like I said, you can hurt me however you want to, I can handle it, but when you inflict pain physically or mentally on my friends, then it's my problem too. I'm only looking out for the people I love. No matter what people say, "You must accept everyone for who they are" you have to admit, we're only human. We're going to have those issues with people we don't like, whether your a good person or not, things will happen this way even if its a small issue.
     When I look in the mirror, I don't see a special person, I just see an everyday kind of girl. There's nothing unique about me, I don't have special powers or anything. I can't fly, make time stop, or have super strength. So what's the deal with me?
     Being human is what we are, and at the moment, I'm kinda sad. I wish people would just go back to their old way and talk to me like a normal human being whether I am "extraordinary" or not. Don't get me wrong, I have to admit that I like the attention, but not to point where I can't have a conversation with my best friend because he is too afraid to talk to the girl he likes. It just sucks. I guess that's the way of life.
     -Banhzaii

 
 

     Warped Tour today was an experience that I honestly will never forget. It was as if yesterday that I was excited and looking forward to it, but now it is just a memory, clear and locked in my head while I recap on my excitement-full day.

     It starts of with me waking up every hour starting at 5 AM because I needed to get a camera from my sister before I forgot. Then, at 6 AM because Allyson called me to tell me she couldn't go till 1:30 PM, it's alright though, no worries. Then, at 7 AM because I had a nightmare. I don't remember what it was about though. Then, at 8 AM just because. And lastly at 9 AM to get ready for work. The anticipation was killing me.
     So after arriving at work (late kinda), I just taught. It was a nice easy day. But I left early, around 12:30. I went home, got ready, and picked up Jen and Allyson. Because I'm not ready to drive down to San Fransisco, my sister drove us. It was one of the longest car rides ever, the traffic at the toll bridge was terrible, but we just enjoyed the sweet voices of Big Bang. My sister loves Big Bang.
     Once we arrived there, it was crazy! We carried extra luggage with us so it was kind of a hassle; our bags looked like it was full of steroids because I brought my blanket and extra clothes along with me. It was a nice day, sunny and warm with a nice breeze. The first thing we did was buy a Warped Tour t-shirt. Allyson said, "It's totally skater". We all bought one. Extra small is surprisingly big on us. I'm excited to wear it. It says, "I Partied On Warped Tour". Afterward, we just walked around, looked for more performances, then found THE WHITE TIE AFFAIR (TWTA) booth! I bought a yellow t-shirt that says THE WHITE TIE AFFAIR on it and it is all decorative and everything. The lady who sold it to us told us that in 30 minutes TWTA was going to do signings so we waiting in line until they arrived. I got a picture with each of them and also got their signatures. Happiness. I also bought Kevin L a Purple TWTA t-shirt for Jen because he likes them; she got them to sign it. After that excitement, we just walked around, browsed at more booths and decided to go check out some of the other bands playing. We went to the Vans' Main Stage but had no idea who was playing so then we checked out the concert times for all of the bands. We missed some pretty good ones but then THE MAINE was still about to perform. We went over to the Harley Stage for their concert. It was crazy and fun. Jen and I were in the "Rock Concert Spirit" and we started jumping around and throwing our hands in the air and everything. Oh man, the lead singer is hilarious and super good looking. He kept saying "I love you FUCKING guys!" After their awesome performance, I went to The Maine's booth and bought a blue t-shirt that said "The Maine is Love and Love is Real", then we went and found them and I asked one of the members to sign my shirt. Pure awesomeness. After that, we just chilled around some more. Jen bought a bracelet for Denise that said "Stay Positive" or something like that. Some guy also stamped us with these massive stamps and he stamped Jen on her chest. LOL. Her fault for having big boobies. Haha. Omg, I really wanted a sticker that said "I <3 Sluts" so I can give it to Linsey, but I couldn't find one. Tear. I also stole a poster off of the gates while strange potheaded fans were watching me. I swear it smelled like pot everywhere. It was pretty gross. There wasn't any other bands we wanted to see so we left.
     We decided to walk to Pier 39 from Pier 30, in reality, it is actually pretty far. As we were strolling along the way there, after a few piers down, we come across a grassy area with a massive bow and arrow coming from the ground. It was a massive sculpture. We decided to just chill at the grass. It was nice, so many dogs. It was bliss. One funny thing that happened there was Jen said, "I smell sushi" and Allyson was like, "WHAT?!?" She totally freaked out and it was hilarious. This was more of a "you'd have to be there" moment. So after a half hour of chilling, we decided to continue our way. It was one of the longest walks ever. I'm guessing it was2 miles. We were also walking behind these group of girls with bikini tops on and everyone was checking them out. I was like "at least they're not checking US out for once." Good thing.
     Once we arrived at Fisherman's Wharf, we went straight to the sour dough place to eat Clam Chowder and Rustic Tomato Soup in sour dough bread bowls. We killed that fast. It was D-licious. After, we just browsed around the wharf and went into a lot stores. We walked into Fairy Land and Jen and I got fairy dust on our cheeks in a shape of a star! It was cute. We went to more stores then we waited outside for my sister to pick us up. We waited for about 20 minutes and then decided to go back and look at more things. By then it was dark and we were watching a guy from the top of the bridge make crepes. He's amazing! It made me want to make crepes now, I want to try one day. It looked yummy too and it gave Jen's nose an "orgasm". Haha. We went to the end of the wharf and just enjoyed the scenery and the waves and everything. We also got to see Seals! They smelled bad though, I tried taking a picture, but it didn't work. Oh, well. After that, we met up with my sister and her boy friend, walked around the other side of the wharf, and then walked back to the parking garage. Allyson wants to go to the Wax Museum, Ripley's Believe It or Not, and the Jungle Cafe (I think). There was so much to do there and the lights were beautiful.
     Once at home, I was pretty tired. Allyson and Jen just chilled at my house for a little bit and then I drove them home. Earlier on the way home, they were telling scary stories. It was pretty creepy, good thing they didn't do it this time because I'd probably be freaked out and get into and accident. That would be terrible. On the way back home, I just kept listening to Bounce by The Cab three times. I kept replaying it. I gotta train hard for rock band! Haha.
     Yea.. Anyways. Tired now. Time to sleep. Today was one of the funnest of the summer. I'm glad  I made Jen's summer worthwhile. I can't wait for the No Doubt and Paramore Concert!
     -Banhzaii

 
 

     My morning today was unproductive (as always). I woke up, did the usual and went on face book. Then I had to stalk down Allyson's house number because she got her cell phone taken away. Silly girl. But anyways, I called Allyson and then picked her up to take her to Lorraine's house. There, we got all of Allyson's stuff back then went to the Great Mall. Allyson bought her Warped Tour ticket there!!! YAY! She's coming along with Jen and I. So after that, we went into Bath and Body Works and I bought an oil warmer with oil for my mom. It was on sale and hecka cheap. I was surprised. The oil warmer itself was $15 but they sold it for $4 and I didn't know until I paid. So yea, that was good. Then we met up with Jen and Kirsten and sat down and talked for two hours. LOL. We had some Kettle Pop with it. Yum. We talked about a lot of things, mostly random stuff.
     After, we were bored so we decided to drop by Erik's house to visit, but he wasn't at home, so we just went to the "tunnels". It was interesting. The we left and decided to go to Axell's house but he wasn't at home either so we just ended up going up to Ed Levin Park and just driving around. We took this one turn so it just let us into the hills. There was a car right behind us stalking us, pretty creepy, but then I decided to take a U-ie. So then we looked for Marsh Road and went down that road. It was pretty creepy during the day because of all the shadows from the trees. But yea, creepy stuff. We left Marsh Road and Ed Levin so I decided to take the Ladies out to a place where it over looked Milpitas. It was nice. Then we went to the basketball courts to see the guys and then I took Kirsten and Jen to karate and dropped them off at the Great Mall. Then I just went back to karate, went home to get my DVD player, went to Little Ceasers for Pizza and then back to karate (kids night out), then to Mountain Mikes, and finally back to the studio. Kids night out was pretty fun. We played gladiator so all the kids were running around hitting each other. Crazy. I think I'm going to be red. Oh boy. But yea. Us staff and non children people just stayed in the office and chatted, Danyelle joined us. At 9:00 PM, kids night out ended and we just cleaned up. I told Danyelle that I was going to visit Cambrian on Monday just to piss off that jerk. Yup.
     Anyways, today was a pretty fun day. I went exploring with the ladies and got beat up at kids night out. Fun.
     -Banhzaii

 
 

     "Jessica! Wake up and take care of the baby!" That was the first thing I heard at 8 in the morning as my mom was rushing to get my brother to summer school. My morning was filled with birthday wishes from my Facebook friends and Wilson, who came and visited me as I was still in my jammies enjoying an episode of Grey's Anatomy.
     The last thing I did as a minor was sharing a 3-way phone conversation with Kenny and Darren because Kenny and I wanted to keep Darren company as he waited to board his plane for China. They were the first ones to wish me a happy birthday.
     Anyways, as 10:25 AM came around, I jumped out of my moon chair, clicked the pause button on my DVD player, turned off the TV and got ready to head out and pick up Jen at school. I left the house at 10:30 AM. As I arrived at school, my timing was perfect as Jen and Kirsten came walking to the front parking lot.  After a few hugs and birthday wishes from Kirsten, we headed out to the Great Mall. Once we arrived, we were greeted by Kim, Patty, and Daniel. I spent the morning with them watching an action packed movie known as:

Transformers 2
It was a really good movie that kept you at the edge of your seat (well for Daniel and Jen it did). Here's the trailer:
The movie ended around 1:30 PM. We shared some laughs and conversed until Patty and Daniel went off to visit their uncle. Kim went to Borders and waited till we were finished because Jen and I went to the Great Mall to search for a Vans shoe store so I could pick up my Warped Tour ticket. We walked through the entire mall until we reached it, but once we got there, the cashier told us to head off to the info table just a few feet down and they will provide the service for me there. In my head I was just thinking Wow... But it's alright because I think we burned off all the calories from the pop corn and candy. So at the info table, it took them about another 10 minutes until I finally got my tickets.
     After I was finished, Jen, Kim and I headed over the BJ's for lunch. The service was slow but the food was delicious! I ordered a grilled chicken sandwich with potato wedges. Kim ordered a baked potato stuffed with broccoli and cheese. Jen ordered some type of pasta, I forgot what it was but it looked good. We also ordered Brochette bread as an appetizer. Yum. Everything was mouthwatering, until we got full. Then it was just too much. I also got a Pizookie that looks like this (It's not my picture by the way):
Pizookie
It's ice cream on top of a freshly baked cookie. Super filling, free and delicious. Yum. After BJ's, Kim went her separate ways while Jen and I took a stroll in New Park Mall to work off all that food. I was so bloated. Then I dropped Jen off and headed to work. Once I arrived at work, more birthday greetings, I was so exhausted that I could have fallen asleep on the floor right then and there. Allan Dale just told me to rearrange the belts and buy him a new drink. Sorry Allan Dale, I complain too much. It took me forever to get it in order, I wanted it to be a certain way. People think I have OCD or whatever, but I don't, I just like SOME things to be in order in life so it makes sense. So after that, I taught the little dragon class and the adult class then I took black belt class. We had a fun day today. We split up into teams and battled it out. We had competitions, played BKJN says, and played Gladiator. Then more birthday wishes and class was over.
     I just wanted to thank everyone who wished me a "Happy Birthday" especially to everybody on Facebook (40+ people?) I had to individually comment them back. Thank you everyone for the gifts. I LOVED them.
     Today was a fun, yet tiring, day. Tomorrow holds an interesting day for me. Then... Warped Tour with Jen! I'm so excited. And I just can't hide it!
     -Banhzaii

 
 

     Yay! Trampoline day! This morning was totally unproductive. I was supposed to go to my dad's shop to help out and stuff, but I had to stay home and baby sit. Oh well. Today, I just stayed home, wandered around the house and watched Grey's Anatomy Season 3.
     At around 2:30 PM, I headed off to Erin Pang's house for a fun-filled day of trampolining. There was, of course, a trampoline, rock band, computer, piano, and fooooood. YUM. It was pretty fun. Jen and I left for a little to head off to Nob Hill. She bought Arizona and I got some sex in a cup (Peach Sorbet). While we were walking back, Allyson and her mom drove up in a car next to us and we talked for a little bit. It was pretty funny. Her mom was like "I can't miss an opportunity like this!" Her mom's funny, but I think she thinks I'm a creeper. O gosh. Anyways... After Erin's party, we just wen our separate ways.
     At 7:00 PM Kenny, Wilson and I went to Darren's house to rock band one last time before Darren goes to China. I MISS DARREN ALREADY! Tear. Rockband was fun.
     I don't understand how much damage one person can do to so many lives. I seriously hope you get pulled over by a cop for ILLEGALLY driving people around when you don't have a license let alone a permit. Why would you put the lives of the ones you love in jeopardy no matter how small a distance you are going? Think about it, if you get pulled over, you have to pay a fine, your insurance goes up, you don't get to drive till your 18, and your dad will be in deep shit. Seriously, I KNOW your doing this to become "cool" but seriously? I've never known such a selfish person before. You DUMBASS.
     -Banhzaii

 
 
Mission Peak Panoramic
In the Middle of Nowhere
The Group
     Mission Peak. We started around 7 AM and ended at 10:41 AM. We're pretty slow. As I took my first two steps towards Mission Peak, I was thinking to myself OMG, What have I gotten myself into? It was a nice sunny, yet hot, morning. Before we reached the first bridge, I was already panting heavily. Oh gosh, I'm so out of shape. Every step I took, I was just wishing for it to be over, to be in bed, at home, sleeping. I kept wondering why I got dragged into this and If i was going to make it out alive; I'm deathly afraid of cows and falling. But the real reason lies within my friends. As I was struggling to continue on, my friends were there to help me along the way. I know that once college is over, I might not be as close to my best friends as I am now. I learned that I must cherish every moment with them because Wilson is going away to Cal Poly and Darren and Kenny are going to San Jose State. While with Kim, she still has her senior

Yeah!
year to go while I attend culinary school. I have learned to be happy with their company, no matter how perverted they can be. It just shows their unique personality. I know that these people, my best friends, will always save me. As we reached the top, the scene was amazing (as

always.) As we were hiking down, my feet started aching. Painful stuff.  This was a fun experience. I am glad that Wilson, although he slept in, planned this trip out. I have the best friends ever.
     After we finally reached the end, thank goodness, we decided to head off to Pacific Commons and have lunch. We went to Jamba Juice, Panera Bread, and Wendy's. After lunch, we went our separate ways and headed off home where I slept soundlessly for almost 4 hours.
     Anyways, today was a fun day. Too much sweat plus tanning do not go together. But all-in-all I'm glad that I hiked up Mission Peak. It's about time I went out and exercised.

     Haha, Patty is funny:
          Me: Thank you for calling West Coast Martial Arts, this is Jessica
                 how may I help you?
          Patty: Hey, It's CGN Patty from Cambrian. Did BKJN Allan Dale
                   leave for training already?
          Me: Yo Patty, Yes he did.
          Patty: Thank you M'am... Here's Danyelle
          Danyelle: Hello... Ok bye.

They're so random. Anyways, time for bed. I'm kinda hungry though so maybe I'll grab a bite to eat. Anyways. Good night! 2 More Days till I'm legal! YAY!
     -Banhzaii

     P.S. Check out my Mission Peak Pictures by clicking on any of the
           pictures above.
 
 

     I'm waiting till it's 1:30 PM so I can get Allyson, go to Jamba Juice,

Picture
then head out to the park to play some tennis with Hieu and Perry. Rawr, Allan Dale called me and asked if I can come in today for work. Tear.

     I guess I'm just going to write about something random... Like Pet Peeves. According to Dictionary.com:
               pet peeve  –noun a particular and often continual annoyance;
                                  personal bugbear
     What are my Pet Peeves you ask?
-One is people who are nosy. Hands down. I don't care if I don't know them very well or if I've known them for forever; I H a t e N o s y P e o p l e. They just get to me, you know? It's like an itch that won't go away. Like for instance, if I'm having this conversation with a friend and some guy randomly pops out of no where and butts in. That stuff ticks me off. Another is if your having a conversation and the guy that pops in asks what you are talking about. First off, butt OUT, and second, None of your business. It also ticks me off when people go through your personal bubble and look through your personal belongings. Stay Out.
-I also don't like it when someone asks you for something but is already taking it from you. For example, my friend (no names) the other day, asked me if she can eat my birthday candy. And before I could say "NO", she already went and took my bag of treats like she's expecting me to let her hoard it all away. I mean, even though she asked, she shouldn't have taken it in the first place. She always does that too.
-A random pet peeve is toilets. It absolutely MUST be flushed before I use it. If there's pee (or poo) in it, then I'd have to flush it. Or if there's something floating in it; hair, leftover poo, toilet paper, a bug, I can't use it. BLEH. I just feel so gross if the toilet bowl water isn't clean.
     -Banhzaii

     Ok, so I'm back from everything. After tennis I went to work. OMG i was so tired. Then I left around 6:15 PM and went to West Coast Cambrian. I met Danyelle for the first time. She's actually really nice. After that, I went to Patty's house, hung out at the pool, then played some Guitar Hero. At the pool, we talked about the person we all don't like, Daniel. Gosh, he just makes me oh so angry. (Oh, there's 2 Daniel's Btw.) But yea. enough of that. I'm gonna have a busy day tomarrow. Good night!
     -Banhzaii
 
 

     It's 4 days until my 18th birthday! I'm so excited. This week is full of plans. Hmm.. Today?
-Walk Clover, Play tennis with Hieu.

     But maybe I will also Watch Wushu with Patty and Daniel. I'm getting hungry. Time for breakfast.
     -Banhzaii