We're supposed to be close. But I just feel so distant. When I try to talk to you, I feel as though you're putting me down with your harsh words. I ignore it, but you can only ignore stuff for so long. I don't feel like I can talk to you. Your judgement towards people always clouds mines, and I have a knack for clouded judgement. You're my friend and I'll always be there for you, but I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to talk about people. I feel like that's all we ever do. Talk about people. It's driving me insane knowing that 90% of the time, it's not always good things. I honestly can't stand it. I'm trying to be a better person, but talking to you, it's just dragging me back down that path. Either you start it, I start it, or someone else starts it.
I don't know what to do anymore. You're a good person, with a good heart. I know that. But you're just too negative sometimes that I can't stand it. I can't be a positive person around you because you'll rip me to shreds. And of course, going back to this infamous issue.. I know you don't intentionally do it. But I feel brainless talking, or even hanging out, with you. It's just.. your tone of voice. It's not friendly, it's more degrading than anything. When I boost my confidence up by 1, you lower it by 2. You always managed to do that.
There's just so much more I want to say, but I can't. You're my friend, and I know you'd care if I told you this. But I can't do it. Let's face it. I'm afraid of you. You. Oppress. Me.