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8/10/2009

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     I woke up at 8:30 today when Kenny called me. It was the first official day of band camp and for once, we were on the other side looking in. I got ready and gathered all of my belongings and headed out around 9:30. Once I arrived there, I walked to the band room just as the band geeks finished their warm up lap. As I walked in looking for Darren or Kenny, I was surprised when two people hugged me from behind. It was Jen and Allyson of course! I wandered my way back into the band room and joined the rest of the guys; Kenny, Darren, Matt P, Alan Berryhill, and Perry. We talked for what almost seemed like forever but ended up being about an hour or so. What a long day it's gonna be I thought to myself. I have to admit that I was pretty bored and tired when the guys were chatting. Alan Hsu later joined us but didn't stay for long. I got so bored that posed a solution to the boredom; go play at Edgies or go to my house and play Nazi Zombies. Darren, Kenny and I ended up agreeing to go back to my place. As Darren and I were walking to our cars, Perry was following us, I think he wanted me to invite him. Oops...
     Well I got home first and made some pancakes. Then Kenny showed up and we talked for a little. I showed him this awesome website! It's called Cakejournal It's this blog site where this lady also shows her creations and how she makes it and stuff. It's pretty amazing! I think she's from Denmark so all of her ingredients are by weight. But it's alright because she has really good tips and everything. Anyways, Darren arrived a little late because he went to run some errands and buy himself Panda Express. When he finally arrived, we turned on Nazi Zombies and started playing. When Darren and Kenny played, they got really far and had some pretty good techniques but they eventually died. Nazi Zombies is so fun! By the time it was 1:40 PM, we left the house and headed back towards school.
     When we arrived at school, we were expecting sectionals but Mr. Kaldy was just running them through pep band music. They have Hot 'N Cold by Katy Perry! Haha, funny. No offense, but they sound pretty bad. They had sectionals at 2:30 which was fun. I met Vincent's sister and another guy flute. They had to fill out this paper thing so I guess they can share with each other later. It was fun I have to admit. After sectionals, Kaldy just showed them some stuff on the internet and stuff like that. I had to leave at 3:20 PM for work though, so I didn't stay the whole day.
    Work was pretty easy, except the advanced dragons. I had Kyle, Krishnaa and Vishal (OMG). Kyle is good, but he talks a lot. Krishna is good but the other two are hold him back, and Vishal? I don't know what to say about him. I guess that he's just not of my favorite students to teach. I easily get frustrated with him. Besides that class, the other's went well and smooth. It was pretty good I must admit. Michelle bought us Jamba Juice! Yay! I got to teach the candidates too. Well not really "teach" but more of review. I had fun with the candidates. After OJ showed up, I left and talked to Darren for a little because he showed up to visit me. He was on the phone with Wilson when I saw him. I miss you WILSON! After that, we both just went home. At home, I just relaxed for a little and went on the computer.
     By the time it was 7:30 PM, I was heading out the door to take my brother to blackbelt class where I was going to run through the 1st degree black belts with kicks and stuff. I actually had a lot of fun teaching them. I got them to be loud for the most part, and now they know their curriculum, or they should've gotten the gist of it. I don't know why OJ is always complaining about them. They're only human, just like him. Whatever, I don't even want to talk to him. Sadly today though, I didn't go to Patty's. Tear. It's alright, next time for sure. I just stayed home and relaxed and finally went to bed.
     -Banhzaii
 
     The day started off slow. It was nice, warm yet breezy morning. I woke up and instantaneously went on the computer to blog about my day yesterday. I recalled all of those outrageous events that happened the day before. What a day. By the time it was 11, my family and I headed off to lunch in downtown San Jose. I ordered a not so healthy fried chicken, rice, and broccoli on the side. Although it wasn't what I originally craved for, I ate it anyways with little complaints. It was fairly delicious and filling. After lunch, my father drove us down to Lowes' to buy more flowers for the garden. We stayed there for quite a while and bought a cart full of beautiful flowers that ranged from size to color. When we arrived home from Lowes', I went on the mac for quite sometime and began to feel drowsy. I headed towards my brothers' territory and collapsed on his bed as the AC was blowing cold air.
     I was awakened by the sounds of the Xbox. My brother had been playing Nazi Zombies yet the Map was undistigushable. I later found out that he bought another map to enjoy amongst himself and his fellow peers. Follwing that, I went back to my room to discussed my new knowlege of Nazi Zombies amongst Wilson, Darren, and Kenny. Darren dicouraged me quite a bit and I chose to only speak with Kenny and Wilson.
     As I was speaking to Kenny, we noticed that today was the last day for the "Buy 1, Get 1 Free" Jamba Juice coupon, so we set sails on our quest for some jamba. Along with us came Clover, who constantly stopped to sniff the grass and mark his territory. Once we met up at the park, we walked towards the bridge and the paved walk way by the creek. We decided to cross the bridge in hopes of getting to our destination quicker. Kenny mentioned a small path that crossed some weeds and plants that would get us there so we crossed the plants as it grazed our legs. But as the path was narrowing down, I noticed a clearing on the otherside, so we crossed the man made border and walked on the pre paved sidewalk. Sadly enough, my idea wasn't the best of the day so we back tracked and found a metal fence that we later had to jump over. Once crossing that fence, we were in the vacinity of the town houses. We walked till we reached civilization and we finally ended up at our destination. Once we entered, a blast of cold air hit us, yet our journey was not yet finished. Jamba Juice was packed with last minute customers, yet Kenny managed to make his way to the front. After ordering, we stayed outside and chatted for a little bit until he pointed our a past friend of ours, Patricia An. We exchanged our hi's and she entered the doors of jamba juice to meet up with her friends. Funny enough, one of her guy friends commented loudly and said, "That girl is cute!" I looked at Kenny and his expression was priceless. He was like, "Did he just say what I think he said?" Another one for the books I might add. Kenny thinks I should reconsider wearing my booty shorts. After we got our goods, a wave of refreshment and satifaction hit us. We walked back to my house taking the correct way and ended up playing countless rounds of Nazi Zombies, the new map. It was fun until the zombie dogs attacked. After many rounds of that, we talked for a bit and decided that our adventure highly matched Harold and Kumar: White Castle because of our endless quest for some jamba, minus the pot of course. Ironically enough, when we arrived back at my house, my brother was watching Harold and Kumar.
     After Kenny's departure, I resulted back to the mac to spread some positivity around. What a day I must admit. Tomarrow holds yet another adventure with the first day of band camp, possibly work, and more adventures, but with Patty and possibly Daniel.
     -Banhzaii

" IT'S GREAT TO BE ME
I AM MY GREATEST ASSET "

lol...
 
Day One:
     I woke up at 6:45 AM got ready and headed out to the studio to meet up with Allan Dale who drove Patrick and I to Boot Camp. We started off with some boxing and other random techniques. Kjn Ernie taught us a new pattern that we're supposed to know for the Boot Camp on Saturday as a demo. An MMA fighter came in and taught us a basic routine that they do to build it into their muscle memory, it's called pumelling. I was partners with Mariah. It's not that bad I guess, you get used to it after a while. It's hard to explain. Then he taught us clinching, then pumel and clinch, and then we added body locks. Pretty fun yet NO ROOM whatsoever. Mariah and I kept getting run over. Bleh. So basically that day consisted of conference calls where the guest speaker was called and they spoke to us through the phone and it was on the loud speakers so we can hear them. We had to take notes and stuff too. The first conference call person was really good and interesting. The ones after that was boring. One of them talked about how to make more money and stuff. I didn't really like that one personally. But yea. We had a bunch of breaks inbetween and also practiced more of that new pattern thing. Pretty boring boot camp I must say. We ended half and hour earlier and Allan Dale just drove us all home.
     When I got home, I ate then went straight to bed. I went to work a little late because I went out and bought Patrick and Allan Dale some Jamba Juice. Allan Dale got Orange Dream Machine and Patrick and I got Carribbean Passion. Yum. Work wasn't that bad. Mariah didn't show up so I had to answer calls and stuff. I'm glad that almost no one called. Blackbelt class wasn't that bad today. I kinda had half a class because I had to sign up RJ and Relaine for boot camp. But yea. After class I drove my brother home, then Kim, Allan Dale and I went out to Chilis to enjoy some Bottomless Chips and Salsa because I was craving them. We also ordered onion strings (ehh) and boneless buffalo wings (yum). It was a nice and suprisingly super filling dinner although we had all appetizers.
     After Chilis I went over to Kim's house and we talked for a little. I stayed till 11:30 PM. When I got home, I showered then went straight to bed but I couldn't sleep till 1 AM. Bleh.

Day two:
     Woke up same time and got ready. I headed out to the studio and we waited and waited for Shelby to show up. She was hecka late! Lol. We picked up Patrick and then left to go to Boot Camp. We got there just on time, but we got yelled at for being late. We just did that demo pattern and then we had a conference call I think first. After that, Ray Saint (author of the book "It's Great to be You"), spoke to us. He's really inspiring. We had a break, then came bac on the floor for more action. An MMA Fighter taugh us some of his moves and we did that for a little. It's hard to explain. Then another conference call, then The Chief Executor of Silicoln Valley came and spoke to us about leadership. Really Inspiring. Break. Action, then Ray Saint spoke again. More breaks, more action, Then Ray Saint for one last time. He's a really positive and inspiring person. It's hard to explain because I've learned so much from him. I kinda want to buy his book now, sounds good. Anyways. Boot camp was more fun today that before. We ended later than expected but it's alright.
     The 5 of us, Shelby, Allan Dale, Patrick, Mariah and I went to La Milpa to have some lunch. OMG Service is fast and awesome. I want to go there again! Lunch was nice and filling, I wish they gave us more chips though. Bleh. Anyways, Allan Dale, Shelby and Mariah stayed for work while I drove Patrick home. I didn't want to go home after so I just went over to Kenny's house to talk for a little. I guess we're not gonna play pool today. Tear. Ehh. I went home chilled for a little, then decided to clean. I just finished cleaning what I can. It's so much better, but it could be improved more. Yup. Anyways I'm super tired. Boot camp tomarrow 7-2. Oh boy, this will be fun.
     -Banhzaii
 
     Today was a pretty good day. Jen called me around 8:45 AM and we talked till about 10. After we hung up, I had breakfast and watched t.v. I got bored after a while and decided to clean my room till it was 12. It's not that clean.
     At 12, Kenny came over but I was still in my PJ's. We're supposed to watch Harry Potter 6 at 12:40 PM. Uh oh.. Lol. So I got ready and we headed out to Jamba for that buy one get one free. We got Razzmatazz and Peach Pleasure. I like the razzmatazz one better, it tasted good. We met up with Clare and Wilson Yu who both went to get some Blush. After Jamba, we all headed out to the movies. Kenny and I had to shove the Jamba in my bag to sneak it in. LOL. I paid for your KENNY. Who wears the pants now? Haha, just kidding. It's alright, you paid me back. Lol. Yup. When we got to the theater, it wasn't really crowded, we got pretty good seats. Kenny went and bought Kettle Corn for $6.50. Lol. Then Clare and Wilson met up with us. We just chilled for a bit and then the movie started. There were some really funny parts and the sad part, for those of you who watchd it.
     After the movie was finished, I actually was unsatisfied. I thought it could've been better. I just wished that Malfoy had more speaking parts. He was silent basically the whole time! Grr. Iono, I guess I just thought it'd be better. We just walked around the mall for a bit. Called Darren but he said that he's not gonna go to the mall and we, Kenny and I, just decided to go to Darren's house aferwards. Clare and James left so I had to take Wilson home. We visited Linsey but she wasn't there. Anyways, after I drove Wilson home, we went over to Darren's house. We played some rockband. Skyped with Wilson and played Nazi Zombies. Omg I suck but Darren and Kenny keep laughing at me. They think I'm funny. I got hecka lucky too! After they opened the "HELP" door, my first new gun was a ray gun. The second game, I got a machine gun and a flamethrower. I got to level 6 both rounds.
     After a while of games, we ate some dinner. I wasn't really hungry because I ate some kettle corn while we were playing games, but dinner was really good and extreemly filling. After dinner, we just chilled and syped with Wilson. Darren put him on the BIG screen! Lol. Anyways, Kenny and I left afterwards and I just went home, showered and slept. Boot camp tomarrow. 8 AM - 2 PM...Tear.
     -Banhzaa
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     I wrote this Technically yesterday, so pretend it's 08/04/09. Today was actually a pretty good day. I had a wierd ass dream and woke up at around 8. Then as I was trying to go back to sleep, my mom called me. Perfect timing. She told me that I had to go to my dad's shop at 11. Darn, my plans with Kenny were soiled... Anyways, I went back to sleep and woke up at 10 AM. Then Kenny and I talked on AIM and decided that we'd go get some Jamba at 10:30 AM. So yea, I picked him up and headed off to Jamba. Kenny got a Strawberries wild while I got the banana one that he always gets. It taste exactly the same! Kenny paid because we had that buy one get one free promo coupon.
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     Anyways, after Jamba, I went to my dad's shop and help clean a bit then used the computer b/c my dad was out on a road service call. He came back about an hour later and I left and got some free tacos at Jack in the Box. Then I went to an eye doctor appointment. I'm getting new frames! Yay! I'm excited for it. Lol. So yea, after my eye appointment, my mom took my brothers and I to more Jack in the Box for those free tacos. I have to admit, those taste really good! After I got home after getting 16 free tacos, I went to take a nap.
     I woke up at the usual time and got ready. I honestly thought it was Saturday when I woke up, what a good nap. Work was pretty good today. I taught Carly and Khobie, the new white belts and I made Khobie's parent's laugh! YESH. Score! Lol. I think Carly liked me too, which is good. After that class, I had to man the front because Mariah wasn't there. I signed up 3 people to boot camp and sold stuff. Not bad, I only wish Mariah was there to do her job... Bleh, I think I do it better than her anyways. So yea, I took class today! Kenny and Wilson Yu were there to watch me. Class was fun. We did MMA and then we did SKITS. Haha. We're such dorks. It was fun though. After class, I closed out and took my brother to Jack in the Box for MORE TACOS.
     As we were waiting in line to pick up our order, my aunt, Thomas and David came. LOL. Random. We left after they finished ordering. It took forever.. Omg. So yea, now I'm here. I just finished talking on the phone with Frank. He's a really deep person, I like having conversations with him. We try not to talk about other people but it's inevitable. We talk about ideas we have and stuff, it's really neat. You should try it someday.
     -Banhzaii

Kenny Ngo: haha i like to be black

Kenny Ngo: hehe sorry i was pumping my balls up

Wilson Cheah: i wish i got tacos...

They are all so wierd...
 
Frank Yau told me:
" The simple truth is; there is no truth, it just depends on the other person's point of view  "

     I'm at my dad's shop right now. He's at some road service call or something like that. I have an eye appointment at 1 and I have work a 5. Bleh. Kenny and I went to get some Jamba Juice today because of that Bogo promotion thing. I picked him up around 10:30, I got the Banana one and Kenny got Strawberries wild. Lol. Omg, I think it taste exactly like the stawberries wild one...
     So, my day yesterday... I basically did nothing the whole morning. I slept around 2 because I got called in for work for 3:30. So yea, work wasn't that bad. I got to teach Nathan one on one. He's getting better! An experiment in progress. I'm getting more comfortable teaching the begginner junior belts. They're so quiet! Bleh. So after candidate class was over, OJ showed up so I went home. The rest of the day, I just chilled at home. Updated my blog and chatted. Ehh. So unproductive. I think work is my escape, it forces me to be active because I'd just be sitting here on the computer, draining out all my energy. BLEH.
     -Banhzaii
 
     Yesterday was the Jack's Mannequin and The Fray concert! So Saturday morning, I had to wake up early to go to work around 9 AM. I got there at 9 and kinda did nothing because Allan Dale wasn't there. I kinda cleaned and reorganized stuff, but that's mainly it. When Allan Dale came, we just talked about stuff. It was a good chat. Classes weren't that bad. I don't remember much but yea. Lol. It ended around 1 PM. I felt like SOMEONE was complaining too much because she didn't have to work that day and yet the phone was ringing, so I had to pick it up. Even though you're not working, can you at least pick up the phone? It's not that hard, and plus, it's what you do anyways when you DO work. After the adults class, she was helping some people out with merchandise I think and she was cleaning up ready to go when there was a parent standing there waiting to get some help so I kinda was like, "Hey sir, do you need help with anything?" and he's like, "Yes, I want to know how much it'll cost, etc." and I was like O, Mariah? And she totally was like *sigh* -_- Pout. Kinda thing. I mean, if you're not gonna work, then don't show up, especially in your uniform. Plus you can't expect Allan Dale and I to know all this stuff especially if we're strictly on the floor.
Kenny's Wife
    Anyways, enough of that sad stuff. I went home, cleaned a little and got ready for the concert. I had so much time left so I went to sleep for a little, then Kenny showed up first and Darren came like half and hour later. So after Darren came, we took off in my car and went to Subway. After Subway, we went back to Darren's place for some refreshments and we were on our way.

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     Friken Darren scared me like a million times while I was driving. I made so many lane changes even though I didn't have to because it merged anyways. Lol. Funny. When we got there, parking was quick and fast, and then we walked to the ampitheather. When we got there and in, we immediately went to buy some shrits. The wait in line felt like forever! It was hecka slow! But we made it eventually. I bought a black "The Fray" shirt with concert dates on the back and a dark blue "Jack's Mannequin" shirt. Kenny bought this really nice "Jack's Mannequin" jacket. I'm so jealous, it looks hecka nice. After that, we walked around and found our seats. We sit pretty close!! :] The guest band was Vedera! Kenny's in love with the lead singer. Lol. It's hecka funny. She's pretty good actually. I need to look her up.

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    After Vedera, we just chilled for a bit. Kenny and I made a bet to see which band is opening next. I said Jack's Mannequin but Kenny thought that The Fray was gonna go. During that time, I was texting Jenann with Darren's phone because she was there also! She said that Jack's Mannequin was gonna go up next. Who ever lost the bet, the other person has to be their slave for a day during band camp. In the end, I of course won. Kenny's gonna be my SLAVE! YESH. Anyways, Jack's Mannequin has so much energy performing. It was pretty good! I didn't know all of the songs, but I sang along to a few of them. I took hecka pics thanks to my amazing camera.

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     When Jack's Mannequin was finished, Jenann and I met up for a little and chilled and stuff. I brought her over to our place and then she had to leave. By then, The Fray was about to begin. They had everything set up. Kenny had pretty good seats! Next to 2 girls, who looked bored the whole concert. Lol. The Fray was alright. I expected more introduction to the songs than constant singing. They kept singing and singing. But yea, not bad. I have to say that after that No Doubt concert, my expectations are pretty high now. But yea, the main focus on that concert is to just spend time with Darren and Kenny and Wilson's spirit. Every minute spent with you guys are unredeamable, I will cherish every moment of it. After the concert, Kenny wanted to buy A Fray shirt, so we waited in lines again, which took forever, but we good the goods we were waiting for. It was worth the wait.

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    We then took some last minute pics of the Ampitheater and walked to the parking lot. Getting home wasn't that bad. I'm glad Darren was there to guide me. Stupid elephant's memory... When we got back to Milpitas, we didn't want to go home just yet so Darren called Albert and asked if we could come over, which we did. We talked/messed around for 45 minutes. It was fun. We left around 12:45 AM and I took them back to my place as they left. That was a pretty fun night!
     I miss Wilson! I think we all do! Weesonaa I can't wait till you come back! Don't forget to TOKBOX with us!
     -Banhzaii
 

     What are friends? People who back stab you and talk shit about you behind your back? No. Friends. Real friends are the ones that have your back and don't say shit about you to anybody. I know everyone does it, talk crap and everything, we're human and its inevitable.
     What I can't possibly get out of my head is "why". Why talk shit about me? I did nothing wrong but try and make some new friends. Is that wrong? I'm sorry that my bold personality has allowed you to feel threatened in anyway. I don't mean to talk jokingly with other guys as if I'm hitting on them or even FLIRTING with them. I've been comfortable with them like how I am to anybody; Guy or Girls. I don't mean to make THAT GUY that you like fall for me. I can't control other people's feelings, they choose to feel what they feel and if they like me, then it's inevitable for me. I don't mean to lead people on with my personality, it's just harmless chatting for me and honestly if you were my real friends, you would've seen past YOUR thoughts and realized that there was no intentions to anything. You should know that I look down on COCK BLOCKERS, I don't like them so why would I be them? It all comes to one conclusion; Jealousy
     I'm starting to second guess my friendship with you guys. I've done so much for you guys and this is how you repay me? Wow. Some friends you are. I expected so much better from you guys especially if you don't like drama. If you don't like it so much, why be apart of it? I cherish my friendship with you guys the most. Do you know why? Besides Kim, you guys are basically my only other girlfriends that I can tell my shit to. My friends from school are only friends but you guys, I consider you guys my best friends. But seriously? If this is what best friends do then I don't want to have any best friends. Maybe I shouldn't have any friends at all.
     I know that you were only out to look out for him, but seriously? Telling him shitty lies about me? Wow. Unbelievable. If you were honestly mature enough and wanted to get away from the drama, you would've told him something different.
     I know that at the lake when you ladies had your little chatting circle, you guys were talking about me. It's no doubt you were, I don't need any proof but what I feel. I felt that you guys were hella talking shit about me and you know what? Fine. Go ahead, just remember that I KNOW everything and that Karma's a Bitch.
     No, I did not lead him on, or any of the guys. I can't help it if they like me, I'm not gonna change who I am nor will I be fake. He already knows that I'm at the point where I'm not here to impress anyone, for once, I am comfortable in my own skin. It really makes me happy being me and being so comfortable with people that I can joke around with them. But honestly, I only see it as jealousy. If you were so jealous and so frightened, why invite me in the first place? Why bother? I would have totally accepted it because I'm not the type to be butt hurt about non invitations.
     So what's said is said. I wish to put it in the past. I just want you to know that I don't go up to people telling them my shit and my problems, they come up to me to check up on me because that's what friends are for. I live by many mottos; "Get sad, Get mad. Get over it." , "leave your baggage at the door." , "the past is the past." etc.
     Honestly, since this is in the past, I'm this close to putting our friendship in the past. I don't like dealing with shit like this, and if you know me enough to care, you know that I'd rather walk away from drama especially if it's THIS ridiculous. I wouldn't be ranting about this if I didn't care, but I do care. I built this wall up, but now it's been torn down. I feel as if I can trust no one. I feel like the world has walked out on me when I needed someone the most and that's the shittiest feeling ever. When you feel as if you lost trust in everybody, expecially your best friends.
     -Banhzaii

P.S - Thanks to Hieu, Kenny, Darren, and Kevin Anthony for sticking with me through thick and thin. And to Axell for always loving me and protecting me. I couldn't have asked for a tighter, more loving and caring group of people.

 

     I figure I shouldn't write about my whole day in my blogs, it's getting uninteresting... Unless something interesting happens then I'll talk about it. But something kinda interesting happened today; Kenny and Jenann came over. We baked red velvets. The first batch, SOMEONE added one extra teaspoon, it came out alright, I had to give that to OJ because he ordered some. Sorry OJ, I still hope your mom likes them. The second batch was pretty good. After we made cream cheese frosting. I think it tasted alright, we added food coloring and stuff to make it different colors. We made Purple! After that, we just chilled, watch Is She Really Dating Him? and saw all the douche bags on that show (especially douch jockey) and we played Scattergories. Then they both went home. It was a pretty fun day, yet hot.
     Today, my sister also waxed one leg and one armpit. It hurt. She used 2 different waxes, one was a hot wax and the other wasn't. But yea, it hurt. After painful waxing and 1 hairless leg/armpit later, Wilson and I went to Darren's to rockband till 12 AM. We went back to RB 1 and I played Bass/Guitar on Expert! I still suck, and I still die. Bleh. Singing IS so much easier, only if you knew the song though.
     Random thoughts in my head:
-I wonder if I'm still making that ice cream cake. I feel like I'm being too pushy, but that's because I still want to make it. But I'll be fine if I do. How are you supposed to have a cake, if you don't tell the cake maker all the info? Bleh.
-Yes guys, I'm totally talking about you guys. You guys are terribly annoying...
-I hope OJ's mom doesn't hate me for those cupcakes. I KNEW I should've made a new batch. Bad Jessica
-Clover needs a girlfriend. Anyone? Female Yorshire Terrier thats CUTE and possibly under $600? Anyone?
-When are you guys taking me to watch Harry Potter 6? I wish Kim was here to watch it with me! Nooo....
     -Banhzaii


I Caught Myself
Twilight Soundtrack


Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I never know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought
by Paramore
 

Hallelujah

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
Well God, make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "Hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can't force these eyes to see the end
If only time flew like a dove
Well, we could watch it fly and just keep looking up

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "Hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

And we've got time on our hands
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but, got nothing but
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands

This time we're not giving up
Oh, let's make it last forever
Screaming "Hallelujah" (Hallelujah)
Hallelujah

by Paramore

     Today was an alright day. Not much happened. So I did the usual as always in the morning. Then I got ready at 11 AM to go to my meeting with Royce at 12 PM. I kinda early leaving the house to PCI so I drove a little slower, till I found out that I was getting later by the second, so I sped up more. I made it a little late but it doesn't actually matter does it? Anyways, as I arrived, I saw that one girl from my competition. I forgot her name, but she was from Ohio or something. Somewhere far. I found out later that today was their first day. I wish I could've spoken to her, but I didn't because I was in a rush to get to the meeting.
     The meeting went well, just signed/filled out papers. Royce told me that my dish cost 27 grand, if anyone asks, and that the students currently taking class are having the most difficulty with the sugar cage. More bonus points to me! Yay! So yea, I just signed everything and chose an orientation date. Exciting. I'm officially in! After PCI, I headed off to Target to do some shopping. OMG they have the first aid kit that I wanted! YEAYUH! I also bought a lot of $1 stuff like hand sanitizer, wet wipes, chap stick, and this new make up bag thingy. I also bought princess band-aids, cheap ipod speakers, and Scattergories! Yup. Exciting stuff. So anyways, after Target, I was planning to go to the picnic thing that Darren, Wilson, and I planned out, but then I decided not to go because I felt like I would be left out. Iono, I just felt like that. So I then decided not to go and I went home and slept.
     Work was alright. Some fun, a lot un fun. I taught Jaylene today, she's a pain but I want her to get better, that's why I'm making her rep out. I don't care if she gets frustrated and she hates doing it, that's the reason why she looks funky. She's not trying, she's lazy, and she thinks that I'm just gonna pass her the way she is. But I'm not. Anyways, she was rolling her eyes and stuff at me and I gave her a choice, I said, "I know you don't like doing this, but if your not gonna listen to me, we can just do conditioning for the rest of the class time. Do you want get better and work and listen to me? or do you just want conditioning?" She chose to work. No one likes conditioning. OJ came up to me at work today ordered some red velvets for his mom. He offered to pay me, but I didn't want the money. I enjoy doing stuff like this, that's why I want it to be my career one day, where I can rightfully charge people. I know I want the money, but I feel that it's wrong for me to take it. So yea, tomorrow I'm making red velvets with Kenny. Fun. Haha.
     It's like an itch that wont go away. You're just so annoying but I can't tell you, it's rude. No matter how much I want to tell you that you're bothersome I can't. I can't bring myself to tell you because you're a nice person; kind and caring. You make me laugh on the occasions and you listen to what I have to say. But honestly? Back off, please, I said please. I absolutely dislike nosy people. It's my pet peeve. I can't help but dislike it. But it doesn't mean I dislike you, don't get me wrong, I like you, you're a good friend. But yea. Back off. Please.
     -Banhzaii