LOL @ Eugene. You're hecka funny. I'm happy for you. I truly am. I really hope that something good comes out of your relationship with her. If not, someone's gonna get a big ass beating, and I'm not talking about you... Lol.
     Today, I talked to Asher for a bit. I so want to show him that I'm upset, but I can't bring myself to do it. He's such a happy go lucky person with the dreamiest eyes ever. Every time I look at his face, I see sadness and I can't bring myself to be upset at him. It's truly unexplainable.
     I kinda agree with Jimmy now. You Win... Our teacher is sightly more awesome than our old teacher. Everything is 10 times more easier. Mainly because she does problems straight from the book.
     After class, I went to the library and did trig hw. Omg, be proud! After, I found Clare and we chilled for a bit. We walked around the whole campus. OMG! We walked next to my trig class and we saw Cecilia walking the other way. OMG! We waved to her of course. Lol. After, I just left to go to PCI.
     I feel so popular there. Lol! I'm friends with a lot of people. We just made cranberry bread, applegingerbread cake, and coconut haystacks. Yum! Class was pretty slow today. I got to walk out of class about a hundred times.
     After class, I was supposed to meet up with Asher to work on trig, but he had to hang out with his dad. The sucky thing was, I was heading towards his house, so I ended up making a little detour and taking the wrong freeway entrnce (101 North). First off, I took 101, I was supposed to take 237. And second, I took 101 North, going to SF. So I had to make a U turn and go south. Anyways, some bitch cut me off as I was merging and she flipped me off. I should've highbeamed her. Bitchass.. I was tailgating her though.
     It took me about an hour to get home. Longer than usual. I went home, dropped off some stuff, then went to mountain mike's for Pizza night. There were 9 people; Alex, Vince, Alan, David, Wilson, Darren, Elizabeth, Basil and I. We ordered 2 mountains, ate, chilled, loitered outside, played with the football, chilled some more, then ended up going to my house to chill some more. Long story short, everyone was gone by around 10.
     After they left, I talked to Jimmy Bui and he helped me with test corrections. I'm so glad he has so much patience with me. He's really helpful. Right now, I'm just talking to Blake. It's 12:23 AM... I need to sleep so I can go to school. Good night!

     Blake, Kira and Amanda, who are all hanging out with each other, are also all texting me at the same time. LOL @ them! Haha. I must be an interesting person or something.
     I'm getting better. I downloaded a shitload of music. Now I gotta take down that list that Eugene gave me. It's 10 and I gotta do hw... which I probably won't do. This sucks. I gotta finish my laundry.
     -Banhzaii

     I didn't really talk to Asher today. He kinda just left us after class. Wilson came with us to De Anza! YAY! I gace him a BIG FAT hug. Lol. We all went to Chipotles; Darren, Wilson, Donald, Alex, Vince, David, and David's friend. I just got chips, ate it, and left for school.
     I gave Jude my Goldfish. He was starving and was picking off all of the mussel from the morning culinary class and eating it. Class was fun. We made Banana Bread and Guelgoph. The banana bread tastes hella good! I love it! Lol. After class, Lynn and I stayed back for a bit to work on our gingerbread house. We didn't get much done. We just sheeted some dough and baked some. We baked it for too long so when we tried to cut it, it was already hard, but we got some pieces cut out of it. No biggie. I burned myself terribly today. I thought it was smart to melt white chocolate and try to carry the hot bowl with my bare hands back to my table. Let's just say the bowl fell to the ground after 2 seconds (but it didn't spill). Now my fingers are burnt.
     I was supposed to take karate today with Kim but I got home about 15 minutes before it began and I'm hella tired. Plus, I gotta do my laundry so badly, find my uniform, do hw and test corrections, rewrite more PCI notes and try not to think of Asher. Alright, I'm going to go pursue my goals.
     -Banhzaii

     I went to this school place that hosted a buddhist thing. I don't know how to explain it. It was just super boring. There were kung fu/wushu people. I was like, "I could easily take them on" I had my uniform in the car and everything too! All in all, it was boring. I hung out with Chen and Calvin.
     After, I went to Blake's place. I bought chips. Geoffrey, Carlos, Kira, Amanda, and Blake were there. It was fun, we played rockband. Then Vlad came. He was really tired so he just left. I didn't expect him to return anyways. Asher was supposed to come! But he didn't... Blake made us dinner, Sky came home and we watched From Hell. Interesting movie. Carlos was texting me during the whole movie! Lol. He's such a cutie. He plays the guitar and his roomate is ALEC! After the movie, I had to leave so I took Carlos and Amanda home. Amanda and I got to go into Carlos' apartement and listen to him rock out on guitar. He played A Certain Romance - Artic Monkeys. I love Artic Monkeys! Haha. His one roomate was there, but Alec wasn't. Darn. After, I drove Amanda home and now I'm home. I'm so tired!
     I really don't know what to expect from you. I don't want to be Tom Hansen as you are Summer Finn. I don't want us to be friends with benifits only for your enjoyment. I want us to either be together, or just to be friends, nothing in between. You say you don't like me nor want to be in a relationship with me, but how can you say that to my face as you're calling me cute names, hugging me from behind, picking me up, holding my hands, and holding me in your arms. I don't want to be lied to.
     -Banhzaii

     I know I need to get some sleep but I don't want to go to sleep...
    -Banhzaii

     Oh man, I love talking to Carlos. Even though I've only met him once, I feel like I can have the most randomest conversations with him ever. So Jen and Allyson came over today. We just talked and watched 500 Days of Summer. Then we made some cookies and went out to buy stuff for pizza. We came home and started making pizza. Omg. Hella big! We undercooked it though so now my tummy kinda feels funny. I won't get sick. Don't worry. We also watched The Number 23 at the same time. Hella trippy movie. Even though I've seen it already, it was nice to watch it again. After the movie, we just talked some more, cleaned up and then they both went home. Fun night with the ladies. I'm hella tired right now. All I want to do is to clean my room and shower. I really wish I had a guy to look forward to talking to. If only...
     -Banhzaii

     So yesterday after De Anza, I went to Patty's house and went to the Mall with Daniel and Patty. We went to the American Apparel store. OMG! They have a friken American Apparel store!! We were all hecka excited. That store was really quiet though, not gonna lie. So we ended up buy nothing. Then I dropped them back at home.
     At PCI, we made hella cookies and pumpkin bread. Omg, someone drained 2 sinks at once so it started overflowing! Ughh. It was flooding in the hallway too. I think it was Thao, but her and Nancy TRIED to clean it, but ended up leaving all the towels there. Then they just went home. Serena changed, but when she got out, she helped Lynn and I and Chef clean it up. GG. Dirty dirty work.
     After PCI, I had so much time to kill so I stopped by Kira's. Amanda and Geoff were there. We played rockband. Lol... ANYWAYS. I was supposed to chill with Vlad that night because I was gonna get my mom a BDAY cake. But Vlad had to eat dinner with his family. Then he calls me up and tells me that he already made plans and all this other confusing stuff. So anyways, Kira drives us all the way to Milpitas to eat In and Out. Then we go to Walmart to look for flowers for my mom but they didn't sell any. On the way home, stuff happened. Drama.
     So we get back to Kira's place, and I go to Amanda's place. Amanda went home to get her things then we go back to my house and give my mom the cake. Amanda slept over and we just talked, chilled, drew sketches, etc. Man, talking to Blake and Vlad are hella funny. Vlad was drunk so I was messing wih his head, and Blake is just Blake. Haha. We eventually fell asleep at 1 in the morning.
     So this morning, we were both pretty late. Good thing there wasn't any traffic! So this morning, Lynn and I thought of our gingerbread house. It's gonna be a Pagoda. Hella awesome! So we took carboard and started cutting and stuff. and also making the shape of everything. It's funny because she was talking about her son. Lol. So, we didnt really get much done, but we just decided to go back to her place and finish. I love talking to the guys. Blake, Ameet and Greg were there. I'm gonna be sad when they graduate..
     After PCI, I drive Amanda home and I head over to Lynn's house. She showed me a pic of her son. Lol. He's alright looking. Apparently he plays the drums, got a label deal, is 6'1", and he cooks. Lol. Funny. So yea, we get everything done. We built our gingerbread pagoda out of cardboard! Whoo! Lol. I hope that we actually pull this off. I dont care if I win or not, this is just a pretty fun experience.
     So now, I'm at home, waiting for Jen and Allyson to come over so we could hang out. I'm so exhausted! But I can't wait. Tomorrow, I think I'm going over to Blake's with Vlad to go chill and stuff. If Vlad doesn't come with me, I'd just be like "WTH VLAD, WTF" Lol. Jkjk.
     -Banhzaii

     So, I went to Kim's place. We talked and I told her all of my stories. It was nice. Her friend was there but she was doing hw. Kim and I are so random. We talked, drank orange juice and juggles tangerines. Then we tried to shock each other by dragging our feet across the carpet. It didn't really work. Kim is such a good remedy for bad days. I just go over there, spill my life out to her, and next thing I know, I'm totally fine.
     So, I went home, and surfed the net. I checked my myspace and Alec responded! Yay! "lol was helpin chef tomm with something, i was walking up and im like wait a minute lol" I'm currently talking to him right now. OMG! So excited! haha. Yesh! I'm staying positive!
     -Banhzaii

     I've been lost the last 2 days. So Asher basically told me that he wasn't ready for a relationship and that's cool, I was totally fine with it. But then, depressing music started playing and I couldn't stop crying. It was weird. I usually don't cry anymore, so I guess it was a good thing. I told Vlad, we talked, and then I talked to Asher again. I guess nothing's gonna change. I guess.
    I hung out with them yesterday; Asher, Vlad and Amanda. It was a long day. Well, I hung out with Vlad after class. He fed me some pork. That asshole... After PCI, I met up with Amanda. We were going to get Vlad, but he had some shindig to do so we just chilled at Asher's. He still treats me as if we're a couple. It's really weird, y'know? We went to Savemart and bought pizzas and sodas. I guess I accidentlly slipped that I hung out with Vlad. Oh well, it doesn't really matter if I hung out with him or not. So we went back to Asher's with the original plan of going back to my place and cooking pizza when Vlad came. Long story short, I ended up going home with Amanda and going back to Asher's. But Vlad and him texted/called me saying that it was cancelled. At first, I thought they were messing with me, but finds out that they were telling the truth. Lol. I bought them some mochi too! Ugh, anyways, I dropped off Amanda and just went home to do homework.
     So today, I saw Vlad as I was walking to trig and he ended up walking me to class. Class was hella boring. Jimmy! You fucking sicko! Jimmy draws penis's all over his eraser! NO LIE! That fruit. Haha. After class, I had some business to take care off. Let's just leave it this way. Jimmy, if you're reading this. Don't say anything at all! Lol.
     After school, I met up with Jeff around 11. We went to Panda and talked. Jeff is hella funny. "Dating is a fucking game" he says, "You date one person, like another and date them too!" Yea, dating is a game. Which sucks, occasionally. So Jeff drove me to school. We made Zucchini bread, raisin bran muffins and (dry) oatmeal cookies. Lynn wants to hook her son and I up. Apparantly he's 21, and plays the drums for 3 different bands! Haha. Cute cute, but kinda weird. Right? LOL. So I waited for Jeff after class. We went down and put out stuff in his car. Then we went back to get some food or something so he ran ahead of me. I was leisurely walking upstairs and all of a sudden, out of the blue. Alec. He opened the door for me and said "hey", I just smiled and Heyed back. At first it didn't occur to me that it was him, but then I was like, "WTf!" and I got really energetic and excited. He was walking downstairs so when Jeff got out of the classrooms we hella ran downstairs. I though Alec was at the bottom so I was trying to rush it! But he was actually on the second floor. So I looked like a fool trying to run down. I was going to talk to him, but after I ran downstairs, it was weird. I didn't want to say anything, so I kept running. Dang. Anyways, Jeff dropped me off and I went back to school. I had a good excuse to! I went to get my dirty uniform. Unfortunatley, he wasn't there. Darn.
     So yea, I went back home, dropped off food at Karate. Talked to Kevin for a bit. Went to Darren's, talked to Darren. Now I'm at home. I really want to go to Kim's house to update her on my life. So much has happened. I'm not gonna lie, but it's friken overwhelming. The whole thing with Asher is getting to my head. I don't know what to think, say, or do at the moment. I know that talking to Kim always makes everything better. It always does. I think I'm gonna go over to her house.
     -Banhzaii