Today was a semi-not-so-really productive day. I began by finally starting on the New Moon book my auntie let me borrow. Not bad I must say. I spent the day going to TK Noodles, Lions, and Lowes with the family to buy some flowers for that garden I never started on but I said I would've. My dad beat me to it. After I got home from Lowes, I just chilled for a bit, then around 2, my sister wanted to go get our eyebrows threaded so I drove to this place on mainstreet. Omg, my eyebrows look so pretty! I think I look different now. After I came home from eyebrow threading, I decided to clean my room while watching Grey's Anatomy. My sister found the CD! Yes! I watched about 2 episodes. I clean part of my room, but I ended up packing for the trip tomarrow. I want to be extra sure that I have everything. After Grey's I went and ate some steak. Omg, so delicious, I swear that I'm getting fatter. Bleh.
     So I talked to Allyson today. We got everything cleared and now everything is fine. But what I don't understand is that you say you like me, you want to be with me, you'd rather get hurt than to give up. But how can you say that with a straight face when you know that you're lying. You know you went up to me and said, "I want to spend a whole day with you doing whatever" and I replied, "You know, if this happens, I can't guarantee anything". You know you asked me first, you initiated it, but why would you go tell someone that I was the one who asked you to hang out. Is it so you can make yourself seem like a better person? Give someone a "better impression" of you? You know, if you never lied, you wouldn't need to make an impression on anyone. You should know that your friends love you for who are, not who you want to be. I told you this before and I'll say it again. If you keep lying, I don't know if I can be your friend anymore. I want to be friends with someone who I can trust, and if I can't trust you then I don't know what to say. I want to trust you, but when I do, I find out that your lying once again. You should know that your friends are a close bunch and when you lie, people find out the truth. Word spreads fast. I'm not angry, I'm just disappointed. Remember, your friends love you for who you are, that's why they are your friends. If my message isn't any clearer to you then remember what I warned you about. I want to have friends who I can trust. And if this help you get over me and actually go look for someone ten times better than I am, then so be it.




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