For a while now, I've been thinking about my past, my present, and my future with you. 

I'm scared to tell you this because I'm scared that you'll turn me down, you'll be scared, you'll run away. So this is why I'm posting it on Weebly, so.. whenever you see it, you see it, because I'm not strong enough to tell you. 

I know we're still young and we haven't hit our one year yet. This might be crazy to admit, but honestly, I want to marry you. I love who you are no matter what crazy past you had. That's not going to scare me away. I can't picture myself loving anyone else besides you. I can't picture us breaking up, and I definitely hope not. I'm going to marry you, unless something, or one, comes in the way. You have honestly been the best thing in my life. I trust you with all my heart to tell you things that maybe you shouldn't know about, but that's because I trust that you wont use that information against. You have a beautiful and kind heart, you're understanding, and you're loving. I know whatever problems come in our way, we deal with it one way or another. 

So Timmy Tang, whenever you read this, I want you to know that I'm determined to marry you. I want a big reception. I want to have a big, white, thousand dollar Vera Wang dress that I'm only going to wear once. I want you to sing my favorite love song to me. I want to live in a nice, beautiful house with you and have little Jemmy's running around. I want to know that when we're 30, 40, 50, to 80, we're still happy and in love and  that we never run out of things to talk about. I want to grow old with you, sit on rocking chairs and just take care of our grandchildren.

Yeah.. I know I'm weird.. I'm sorry :T But that's the future I've always wanted and with you it just seems perfect. 

<3 Banhmiiii