I feel like my life is going by so quickly and I don't have anytime to just stop and rest. If I'm not at school, I'm with Timmy, or I'm baking, or I'm doing homework. I don't even have time to spend with my family anymore. If I even see my brothers during the week, it's a miracle. 

My money is depleting faster than anything. I'm spending money on ingredients, or food, or gas. I don't even have the luxury of spending on myself anymore because I feel too guilty to even spoil myself. 

I barely see Timmy (surprisingly). I see him a couple hours a day and almost never on the weekends. I know I should be thankful that I still see him, but I miss that I don't get to hang out with him often anymore. It sucks that Timmy doesn't like baking with me, so when I bake, he's usually chillin, playing games, sleeping, or just isn't around. 

I feel more stressed out than ever. I have to accomodate to my friends, to Timmy, to school and to my kittens. I don't even have time to play my piano anymore, heck, I don't even have time to put on my bedsheets because I've been too busy. 

I wake up every morning at 7 and barely make it out the door on time. I don't eat breakfast so I'm always hungry for my first 2 classes. Despite all the meals I eat throughout the day, I am always hungry. 115 to less than 110 and counting. 

I barely have any energy to survive throughout the day. I can't stay up past 12.

I want to make something special for you for vday, but I'm afraid that I wont finish it in time. I have absolutely no time to work on it.  

Ughh. I just want time to stop. I want to take a breather, go out, explore, have fun. (of course, I find baking fun but I want to do something outdoors). I want to spend time with my bbz.

Can I just take my vacation now and go to Australia please?

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